jellyfish in the sky

a hot needle pierces into soft butter like a heavy stone drowning in the sea

my thoughts are circulating like a firefly flickering in the night sky

fast and sporadic

fleeting in the moment

i want to know your beautiful mind in full

white sheets cherries and firewood

there are things i wish were forever understood

i daydream of you almost every single day

it feels like my life is in a never-ending loop of the times that slipped away

but why you didn’t stay

i guess you wanted run

runaway into a eternal field of hay

where there’s no place to lay

i always thought you wanted to lay

anger boils over easy for someone like you

it’s a trait that seems to be attracted to your frontal lope like a nasty disease

the initial burn can feel like a sharp but cold blade cutting my skin open ever so easy like i was a ripe peach

but the tingle of the juice bleeding outmakes me want to feel it again

and again

and again

in a constant interlude

the same words keep flickering in my head like a lightbulb that’s about to give out

i think i’m giving out

but the question is why do i want to feel it

feel something so desolate when it’s all said and done

maybe i just want to feel something

anything

or maybe it’s just you

the power you have over me is unhealthy

it’s like i’m addicted to something i can’t

have

i’m aching to break free from the hold of your warm hands surrounding my half

defrosted heart

i don’t want it to end

but you already decided the conclusion

before i even knew what you meant to me

imperfect perfection was what we were

and i wouldn’t change that for the world

October 4 2019