fleeting

i was always bound for the city life

that’s the only life i have ever known

thinking of the simple life makes me want to jump off a bridge

and maybe that’s a little dramatic but it’s the truth

at the same time, there’s something so intriguing about it

it can be that it’s so unknown to me and something completely different than my norm

people say once you experience it nothing else matters and you realize that everything else in this world is just...

a joke

but the quiet scares me

too much silence isn’t good for the brain

me alone with just my thoughts can be a horrifying place to be

but also the most wonderful depending on the day

the noise keeps me alive and my mind busy

chaos turns into beauty

inspiration bleeding out everywhere you look

never a dull moment

not a minute to spare

i love being in a big city

it makes me crave those quiet fleeting moments and grasp for them as long as i can before it disappears again

i always loved travelling for that reason, especially on trains

when passing through little towns and countryside you get that dose of quiet that i oh so desperately need when my head has been around to many fumes that i can’t think straight anymore

as much as my mind needed that quiet time is as much as my heart is itching to be back in the noise

i guess i’m a person who needs a little bit of both to be somewhat sane

duality is a part of my nature and that’s okay life’s all about balance and nothing is perfect

the next stop is...

April 19 2020